A small brief intertwine of words from an everlasting God, that puts everything in perspective.
My mom was on her way back for my sisters volleyball game when God spoke to her. He said, "That would have been Emily." It brought my mother to tears. It, in an instant put everything into perspective. Something I wanted so badly for so long and I fell short and didn't achieve it, God showed me that I didn't need it. He showed me that it wasn't my plan, it was something that for so long I wanted to know why, last night he supplied me the why.
The first thing that came to mind was, "Why now?" God answered me and said "Why not?" Why not... Why not now? What delayed God from doing it then instead of now? He does everything in His timing and not mine that is why I didn't get an answer when I wanted one. I didn't need to have one then. He gave me an answer when He knew I would understand.
How great is our God that he waits until we are ready not desperate, not lonely, not expectant? When it happened I vowed that I would trust God through it and that someday he would show me an explanation and even if He didn't that I was going to be okay because God knows better than me by far, now that I understand the why I have so much more respect for Him and myself for that matter because I had the faith to say, "This is how its going to be no questions, and if its not its alright because He is going to be there forever and he's got me."
My faith has a new meaning, trust the unseen, have faith in what is promised, it won't happen on your time, be ready not desperate. When God speaks listen, He may be reveling something to you that you may have questioned for a long time, trust in him and he will deliver, always.
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